(C) Photography: Jean-François Jonvelle | Model: Lulu
Well, this afternoon was challenging.
After a healthy breakfast and lunch, a chocolate craving came out of nowhere and tried to tempt me.
For an hour, I was really in turmoil (and chocoholics like me will know that it can be a real struggle).
A part of me kept saying “come on, you can have some, just a little”, the other part was saying “no resist, it will pass…”
It didn’t pass, I spent an hour trying to convince myself that I could get away with it and straight after that no, really…I shouldn’t do it.
Giving up smoking in my nightie in the supermarket was a walk in the park in comparison to giving up chocolate!
I know, some of you will think denial is not good, I should allow myself a bit of chocolate, blabla and yes I agree.
I would have indulged a bit if I hadn’t had a few slices of the chocolate cake over the weekend but indulging again 2 days later, I felt was embarking on a dangerous territory.
The thing is, it’s indulging ‘a bit too often’ that landed me with 10 kg overweight and I didn’t want to give in.
I didn’t want my greedy inner child to think that she could get away with chocolate cravings whenever she wanted to. I felt if I gave in, I would be back to square one and the bottom line, I have all my life to enjoy a bit of chocolate…not just 3 days in a row.
My friend Nat advised me to go for dark chocolate and somehow, that kind of released the tension. By the time I went to M&S, my willpower was stronger and I settled for a little pack of nice cherries and a few cashew nuts and eventually the craving passed.
So lesson to learn, always have a bottle of water and a fruit & some nuts in your bag!
The downside is that in the end, I didn’t make it to yoga. I felt frustrated, angry with myself… with this flipping craving, with everything that didn’t go according to plan when really it should have been a good day given the achievement of this morning.
So, I called it a day to calm down and re-focus and tomorrow, I will do 2 classes to catch up.
A frustrating day but I won and tomorrow is another day.