How has your week been so far? Mine has been good…and interesting.

I took good care of myself, went to the hairdresser and frankly after three weeks of living under a rock, I feel and look human again but what I thought was interesting was how things were changing for me. I did two things that I would have never done before dad’s death.
First, I posted a photo of myself with thighs and an ass as big as Kim Kardashian and secondly, I posted my first video (thank you for all the nice comments you left, I’m no Spring chicken but I’ll gracefully take them anyway!).

Some people lose weight when they are under a stress, I’m the opposite. I eat a lot of sugary food so I went for it big time and in 3 weeks, I put on weight what I had managed to lose in 11 months and that’s ok.

That’s ok because in the scale of things, I no longer give a damn. I lost my dad, I miss him terribly and I’m not going to be Superwoman and have everything under control.

I will go back to my fitness routine next week and hopefully to my weight before dad passed away, mostly because I really hate how I feel in my jeans at the moment and I long for the feeling of confidence I had when I was eating clean and working out regularly but I’m not going to beat myself up for it.

For me, posting this photo and video at a stage in my life, I’m physically the biggest I have ever been, meant also something very powerful.

I chose LIFE…

Regardless of what happened recently, I will go out there and do the things I love because no matter how hard life is sometimes, it is worth living and I will keep pushing to try to achieve the best life I can have and I hope, I sincerely hope that if you are going through the same painful stages in your life, you will feel the strength to do it too. In the meantime, here is my selection for this week, enjoy xoxo

1. I’m loving this gorgeous Marcie shoulder bag from Chloé

2. and as it’s getting cold, this Lanah sweater by Malene Birger looks perfect to stay warm and stylish

3.I’m faithful to my Isabel Marant watch but I’m loving the large size and design of this Classic Sheffield watch

4. I had a real coup de coeur for these ikkii boots but since they don’t go with the look I’m going for, these Bowie wedge trainers are much better (I’m selling mine here)

5. and these ripped jeans similar to the ones I’m wearing.

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